Ok, so yesterday I had a doctors appointment. Without getting to technical, I have diabetes. It wasn't so much of a shock because it runs in my family. My mom and grandmother had it. Luckily its at the beginning stages, I don't need to take any medication or insulin, just eat better and exercise more. In October, they will take more blood test, one is an AC1 test. From what I read online, this tells me how I will be able to control the diabetes. If I am not able to do it well then I think I go to meds. I was planning on losing weight anyways for the wedding, but this disease just forces me to start it sooner. So, I will be looking extremely hot by the time I get married. LOL!
Anyways, today on my break I walked around my building. I used to do that every day at both breaks, but stopped because I went back to school and needed the time to study. Well, it felt really good to get back out there. During my walking time, I use to call my mom and just keep in touch with her. I would also contiplate any issues I needed to go over in my head. Today, well I thought a lot.
Mr. Teddybear and I wanted to try to have a baby. What you don't know is this: we are both over 40, I have one daughter but had difficulty concieving her in the beginning. So my thoughts on this walk was if Mr. Teddybear and I would be able to not only concieve a child, but to have a healthy child. I decided to put it into God's hands and let him decide what to give us. Whether it is a healthy child or not, Mr. Teddybear and I would love it with all of our hearts.
I missed my walks. I use it as my "me" time, when I get to think about things I want to think about and to not think at all. I will be doing them more often. One thing I did realize was how very blessed I am. There is a country song that say's "God must really love me!" Yup...I think he does!! :D
